Tropical Vacay Booked.

My heart was pitter pattering. I had all the guilt, the, “I’m not gonna do this” thoughts running through my head. I told my husband that I’ll just stay home and work on digging up and RE-doing the flower beds for Spring instead.

I told him he was going to have to push the “Book Now” button for this trip because I was so nervous. He wouldn’t do it for me. He encouraged me to plan the trip. He goes on trips all the time with zero guilt. Why do I feel so guilty????

After much deliberation I pushed the booking button. I did it. I booked my first solo vacation ever. Then, I booked my first ever, first-class flights. At a high end luxury accommodation. Just to put this in perspective, the last time I visited this place, I stayed in a tent after a 2 day road trip in my small car to get there. I remember laying on our deflating air mattress listening to tiny little key deer running around our tent in the middle of the night.

From the hint above you might have guessed, I was headed to the Florida Keys! So excited to watch the palm trees sway, the ocean waves roll onto shore, taste the fresh fruit smoothies from Robert Is Here, drive over the seven mile bridge and watch the sunset from Mallory square. I also booked several spa treatments while there as well.

This is such a stretch for me and in such a good way. This gets to be my life now. Life gets to be fun. Life gets to be joyful. This is a healing trip. Since my last truly relaxing vacation, I’ve become a mama! And in doing so went through two traumatic births and nursed babies (a whole other full time job) while building a home building -land developing- real estate investing business that has generated nearly $30-40 Million Dollars in revenue. $30,000,000- $40,000,000….Just to add the 6 zeros after that. That’s amazing to me! That’s a lot of money our company has generated in an economy of such a little town.

And thats not my biggest milestone. Something even greater is that in this time since last coming here, I’ve walked away from the most impactful, longest relationships in my life. The healing part of this trip is that the people who first opened my eyes to the Florida Keys have chosen to no longer have a relationship with me because of my choice to walk away from abuse.

Initially, I was hesitant to visit again and especially coming by myself because I knew those memories would come up. But that’s not how healing works. It’s time to rip off the bandaid. This is me going back to that place. I can’t think of a better place to read my book in it’s final revisions than a place that has that kind of meaning to me.

This is me RE-writing history. This is me breaking cycles of abusive generational patterns. This is me showing future generations that you can walk away from abuse and go on to create the life of your dreams. This is me celebrating me and all I’ve overcome to get here. I know my angels in the sky are smiling.

I’m a cycle breaker, a rule breaker, a rebel. I am going against the grain. I’ve always been that person anyway. I want YOU to know that it’s ok to celebrate YOU and all you’ve overcome to get here. I want to be an example for others to break the cycles, break the molds and take care of what matters most, you. If you don’t take care of you, who will? Go after the life of your dreams. It’s time for me to live by my own words! And I invite you to do the same!

Time to shine. Time to celebrate.

xx Becky